Home at last

I have finally moved into my witchy sister's house in Innisfil, ON
The fresh air, the trees, the pond and the fire pit... just to name a few reason's are why I am here.

Up here I am stress free and once  all the steel city toxins are out of my body, I will be a lot healthier.  Shannon has made me and my oldest son feel so welcome as has her daughters!

Family and friends are free to visit whenever they wish and I am across the lake from one of my sisters and her family.

Even the dog and cat are enjoying the freedom and relaxation of being up here, this is the smartest move I could have done for myself.

move less than 3 months

I can't believe I move in less than 3 months from now!  I have soooooo much still to do but I am excited about moving home, I say home because I feel like I'm home when I am there with Shannon and her kids.
It's a 3 hour drive or so and I need it so bad.  Lately the city is just getting to close for me to handle.

In other news, I found out that I should be able to get a prescription card from welfare so I don't have to continue to decrease my daily doses to make my meds last longer.
Hopefully ODSP kicks in soon and I won't have to worry about that any more.

I have so much packing to do but its so hard when my roomer has his stuff everywhere and I can't get to my stuff.  End of the month he's going to have to move his stuff so I can start packing my other stuff or he can leave.

Time for me to go to bed, good night to whomever reads this blog.

SWAT Team and Police dogs

Last night I was sitting here cross stitching and heard a very loud bang followed by the sound of something on my roof!  I went to the door to see SWAT and police out front of my house with huge guns, lots of them!
Two came to the door asking for access to the roof and there was a criminal on my roof, so I told them how to get to the roof and was told to stay in my house with the doors locked.
After trying to look out the front window I was told to shut the curtains LOL
They caught the guy and apparently there were a few others they took out of the apartment next door for dealing drugs.

I have to say it was scary to be apart of the whole thing. 

Running Around in Circles

Today I had to go to the bank for paperwork for ODSP, without a car it means 3 buses there and 2 buses home.  I hate it!  I is a nicer day but still chilly out there in the wind.

I feel like I am running in circles, getting no where but I just keep going... sad, tired, depressed and very little joy.

I need spring to come and warm up the earth and I need boxes to pack, thanks to the mice that ate through the last ones!

I have to go to my doctor's on Thursday, I have been putting it off, he is going to be annoyed I quit my job, but my mental health comes first.

Did a sample tax run yesterday and I am going to owe $1,100.00 how do I pay this when I only get disability payments each month?  I am terrified.

I found out that I may qualify to dip into my locked in RRSP due to financial hardship, I should know by next week if this can help me or not. 

So tired

These days I am so very tired.  I have so many things I have to do, get my birth certificate signed by a guarantor, once I get that done and mailed off then I need my SIN then I can get ODSP.  Oh, and bank records... all things mean I have to leave the house and that is getting harder and harder for me.
I am moving in 3 months and have so much to do to get this done and feel like doing nothing these days.  I need help and my appointment with my new shrink has been moved to April.  
Not sure what to do but have to make myself go out Monday to the bank to get that covered, then Thursday I will have to go to the doctor's to get him to sign my birth certificate information signed, also have an appointment with ODSP Tuesday which will only get partly completed without my ID.  4 weeks left of my medications, then nothing and that is terrifying.  I have been without med's before and I feel like I want to die.  It will be a trick to keep myself safe from myself.
I wish spring would arrive, it is so much easier to travel the buses when the weather is nicer.

Winter, PLEASE leave!

I haven't bitched about the long cold frigid winter yet, but I have to now.  I am sick and tired of the wind that is so cold, the snow and the bitter air!  My poor little dog will not walk in the boots they make for dogs so she ends up holding up a paw by the time she goes out just to do her business.
Last year I had a person that would drive me to my appointments etc but this year she picked up a 2nd job so she is busy and I have to face the elements and it sucks!

We really didn't even have an Autumn, it has been a very long winter and I think it should be finished.

Not much of a rant but that is all.  LOL I am too easy going, which is not always a good thing.

Full House

January started with the death in the family of a beautiful soul, my oldest son doesn't take death well and has ended leaving his father's house and moving onto my couch.  I can't wake him to save my life, however I know the sleeping has to do with his depression right now.  I am trying to get him to go back home as sleeping all day doesn't work here when he's on my couch.  I can't cross stitch because he has the best light and windows behind him.

Then there are my room mate's friends, they are always here and I mean always I wake up, they're here I go to bed they're here.  I want to scream!  His gf is quiet and I hardly know she's here, but she's here every day/night.

I am moving the end of June, I can't wait to get to the country side.  It is a little sparse for me but I need a change and my friend needs help too.  Can't wait for log fires and no sirens no traffic and no crime.  Have to go through my stuff and start deleting things from my house so I don't have so much to move.

Well that's it for now, I will write next week.

Blessings from the Goddess to all.